Friday, March 9, 2007

On cruise control

Ever just feel like you are coasting through life? I don't think I have ever felt like that to the extent that I do right now. I'm not necesarily sad, definitly not overjoyed, just here! I know that this is not the abundant life God speaks of in His word, yet I can't seem to get out of this funk! Our Pastor talked a couple of weeks ago about a winter time.....a dry spiritual time....where you might not hear from God, but growth is occuring. Well, the not hearing from God part fits (yet there are a few times I have felt him giving me some nudges in directions), but not sure the growth part does.....hopefully I am growing where I can't see it, but man this feels weird!

I hope it passes soon!

Wednesday, March 7, 2007

Dreams that make you go hmmmmmmm......

Well, I had a weird dream last night..but it was one of those that was so real that it makes you wonder if there was something to it!

I dreamed that I was pregnant and having some difficulties, so I went to the doctor. It was way too early to deliver so John stayed home and mom and dad went with me to the doctor. They were doing a sonogram, and the tech asked if I wanted to know what the baby was.....I could see the screne, and it was so real! I could even tell what the baby was....it was a boy!!! Which is really odd since I have never had a sonogram with boy parts! :) Then it took a weird turn and I am in the hospital room with the little boy in an incubator beside me calling John to tell him he has a son. He wasn't very thrilled that he missed it all! :(

It was just so real, that it made me want that little boy! Made me wonder if God will bless me with another pregnancy that will result in a little brother for Noah! He wants that so badly! Yet, I know we will adopt again also. A pregnancy will have to be a God thing because John is really done with bio children, I think! We shall see!!!