Show me Your glory!

I recently found this song by my new favorite group, Jesus Culture. It describes perfectly my prayer right now! As I walk out of the dark place I have been in for the past few months, I am simply begging God to show Himself to me more each day. Is this a sign of spiritual immaturity, lack of faith or weakness that I need to see God tangibly right now to strengthen me for the battle? Possibly...and probably yes! But I figure even if that's so, I'm in good company! Just like the song I linked talks about, Moses asked to see God's glory (Exodus 33:18). Thomas asked to put his hand in the scars of Jesus hands and side in order to believe (John 20). Gideon questioned God and asked where the miracles were his fathers had spoken of when God commanded him to fight (Judges 6). He threw the fleece out and asked God to work a miracle in order to believe Him and move forward in his obedience. If these men who in the case of Moses and Thomas had literally sat face to face with God need in times of darkness or struggles to ask to see God's glory, I think there is no shame in asking the same for myself!

God's heart is for me to pursue Him. I'm not sitting around waiting on "the miracle" with an attitude of rebellion. I'm not saying if He doesn't do _______(whatever you might put in the blank), I'm not going to believe. I am walking in faith (what little it may be right now) as I wait. I'm asking Him to increase my faith and help me in my unbelief by showing me His power and His greatness. I am asking Him to reaffirm His love for me so I know without a shadow of a doubt that He is pleased in the direction I am headed and I am walking in His power and protection on the path I am on. And I'm asking that my eyes be open to "the little things" He does daily that I miss if I'm not tuned into His workings!

The thing God has showed me in the four weeks that I have been back in the saddle, truly pursuing Him, is that there is a fierce battle! I think we in the Christian realm throw that around a lot..we're in battle. But one night when I was crying out to God, I was reading Daniel 10 where Daniel is crying out to God also and an angel appears and tells Daniel that he started coming to him the first day Daniel sought God, but the Prince of Persia kept him tied up in battle until day 21 when he was finally able to appear to Daniel. I felt a quickening in my spirit that the exact type of thing was happening for me and my family and that I should be praying as one doing battle. I don't even pretend to understand all that just that one scripture means as far as life and Spiritual warfare! But I do know I got on my knees and prayed like I have never prayed before...and suddenly a peace that can't be questioned fell over me. But here is the deal...that battle happens all day every day! That prayer released God's plan for that moment, but I can't stop there. I have to do that kind of battle, on my knees, every day!

Over the past few weeks, I have become so much more aware of the battle. Truly aware that there is an enemy who is against God's plan for me, my husband and my children. There is an enemy who seeks to devour us..he comes with the only intent to steal, kill and destroy. And sadly, without knowing it, or sometimes even just because I believe the lie that I'm too weary...even with knowing it I help him!

So I am asking God to show me His glory. Like Gideon, I am asking God to show up for the battle in a way I can "see" Him! I need to know now more than ever that He is powerful enough to fight this enemy I am up against. I need to know He "has my back" as I walk into the things that I believe He is calling me to....because without Him, NONE of them will work! And I know that my biggest job as wife and mother is to pray for my husband and my children. To go to battle for them daily in order for the plans of the enemy to be thwarted and the plan of God to be brought into being on earth as it is in heaven! I don't take battle lightly anymore! I have on my full armor...and my armor that seems to not fit, I'm asking God to repair and replace so that I can move forward! He knows my heart anyway, no use trying to fake it with God! If I lack faith, I might as well confess it and ask Him for more...He is after all the Author and Perfector of my faith. If I lack belief, I might as well tell Him as Thomas did that I need to see with my "eyes" in order to believe.

I believe in miracles. I believe He still wants to perform miracles, and I believe He does perform miracles. Be looking for a post in the days, weeks, months to come....I'll report back because I believe God will be faithful to answer the prayers I am asking to see Him....tangibly see Him and His glory and His power!