Could it really be????

I e-mailed Sheku, the one guy that I really 'connected' with when I was in Sierra Leone. He told me his personal story of being an orphan, and I could tell it was real. He was the only one I really trusted by the time it was all over. I e-mailed to see if he knew anything about Eden. I sent the e-mail sometime last week so had pretty much given up on getting a response. But today there was one! Eden's dad had to move because he couldn't find a job where he was. He only has one leg because of an infection that caused him to have to amputate his other leg. I met him while I was there, so I know this to be true! Her Grandmother is still caring for her as far as I can tell, but she is not in school anymore because they cannot afford it.

Sheku said he would check on her if I would send him the money to make the trip and rent a camera and he would send me pictures....could I really see her again after more than two years? What does she look like? Will I recognize her....more importantly, will it be obvious that she is the right child? You always have to wonder a little about that!

Over the past two weeks, Sierra Leone has come up from different areas of my life like crazy. I don't know if God was preparing me for this or for the possibility of us starting a program there. A fellow mom with an adoption ministry sent me an e-mail from a Pastor in Sierra Leone who contacted her about placing children from his home with families. She is doing some more checking, but so far he looks legit. If so, then Eden could stay at this orphanage during the process. There are many pieces that have been put in front of me that would make her adoption possible, IF this is what God tells us to do. So that is the hard part! Is this really an open door and God saying its time for her to come home? Or is this just me trying to force something that is never supposed to be? We are home study approved for two. So we would not have to do anything except change one of our INS approvals to SL. We would be set to go!

I am surprisingly calm! I think it is because I know this is in God's hands! I am ok with that this time! He is worthy of anything He would ask me to go through with this! So I will sit, wait, be still and know that He IS GOD!